SURVIVORS’ STORIES INTRODUCTION Father Thomas Doyle, O. P., J. C. D.  
The Roman Catholic clergy sex abuse phenomenon that has unfolded like a deadly cloud over Church and society is, without a doubt, the worst example of the Church gone awry since the Inquisition. Unlike the Inquisition, however, the victims of this nightmare will not be consigned to anonymous oblivion. Many of the thousands who have had their bodies and their souls violated by members of the clerical elite have emerged from the depressive and defeating pit of victim hood to become Survivors. Though used and often cast aside by the uncaring and callous official ministers of the Church, these men and women have refused to stay beaten down and have risen to challenge the ecclesiastical institution and the society that has stood too often silent and complicit. The Survivors of Catholic clergy sexual abuse are unlike any other sexual abuse victims. In an interview with the National Catholic Reporter in August, 2003, Dr. Leslie Lothstein, of the Institute for the Living, characterized the impact of sexual abuse by a priest as “soul murder” and so it is. The priest, as Catholics are taught from their earliest years, takes the place of Christ. When a devout and unquestioning believer is violated by a priest the shock penetrates to the depths of the soul. The victim experiences a unique kind of despondence because he or she feels betrayed by one who has been trusted even more than a parent, and even worse, abandoned by the God personified by the abusing cleric. The utterly remarkable thing about the Survivors, including those whose stories are told in this book, is that they are able to rise above their spiritual devastation, emerging as strong and focused advocates for the Truth. If any aspect of this entire debacle reflects the work of the true Spirit of God it is the often incredible resilience of Survivors. Their stories tell much more than sordid tales of clerical betrayal with the consequent soul rape and murder. They take us to a deeper understanding of the dark side of organized religion and certainly the dark side of institutional Catholicism. We see the terrible consequences of the irrational power that cleric’s hold over countless believers ... a power grounded in their self-styled exalted role as essential intermediary between the distant and often stern God, and the helpless sheeplike lay folk. This power, which the victims are taught never to question, helps forge what psychologists have labeled the “trauma bond.” This bond explains why victims are all too often powerless to stop a repeating clergy predator who abuses again and again, each time dragging his prey even deeper into the pit of despair. This same bond is the reason why so many wait in fear for years or even decades before coming into the light to publicly name their abuse and the abuser. The Survivors’ stories reveal a pathetically inept and traitorous hierarchical superstructure that was so consumed by its own self concept and controlled by its addiction to power that it was and remains blinded to the horrendous rape and pillage going on in its very midst. The reaction to the betrayal by the hierarchy has been both understandable anger and fury but also a surprising and encouraging spiritual maturation of not only the Survivors but an ever increasing number of lay people and even a small number of priests. They are coming forward and shedding the chains of clericalist oppression and laying claim to their right to be true members of the Church and not just silent and docile fund sources, treated as if they were all four years old. The Survivors of clergy sex abuse have “survived” much more than the assaults on their bodies. They have survived spiritual devastation and religious slavery that has kept the vast majority of the Catholic church’s membership locked in a spiritual time warp from which they were not allowed to venture past late infancy. The Survivors are a unique group. They have suffered intensely. They have been betrayed by the clergy and the church they trusted without question. They have emerged as prophets, pointing the way to a healthier and more authentic church ..... a church that is walking out of the dark shadows of the medieval museum into the light of the Body of Christ.